You might not have missed me … but I missed you! It’s been a massive week for me. I’ve found it impossible to look at my phone or the internet for a multitude of reasons. I’m really glad that I’m now able to reflect on the last week and I hope that by writing this… Continue reading I’m back!
I believe there is not one cause for my Postnatal Depression and Anxiety, nor one solution. I wanted to take a closer look at what made me so susceptible to the illness (one ‘professional’ commented that I was a sitting duck…). In order to do this I decided to do a little diagram and… Continue reading My Postnatal Depression triggers
I believe depression is likely to hit when the amount of losses in your life outweight the gains. As you become a parent there can be a lot of loss. Here’s an example of how my losses vs gains looked at around 1 month postpartum. I felt overwhelmingly sad over all my losses – a… Continue reading Parenting – Losses vs Gains: getting back a healthy balance
*Trigger warning: this post contains reference to suicidal thoughts.* From the outside it may have looked like I’d fallen into life’s jigsaw perfectly. I’d emigrated from the UK to Australia, had a long-term partner and we’d just got married. I was working in a decent job in the advertising industry. I was a diligent employee… Continue reading How depression taught me anything’s possible
The reality is that while it might look like I’m sound asleep, perfectly still and eyes shut, inside I’m anything but. It’s like my mind comes to life as soon as I hit the bed. I started to think about this because I have a Fitbit, which supposedly tracks your sleep. I checked it this… Continue reading I might look like I’m sleeping…
I’ve noticed the weirdest thing… When I’m sad I write about positive things. When I’m happy I can write about negative times. I’ve only been writing this blog for a month but it’s been one of the hardest months of my life. But I bet you’d never know that from the blog posts I’ve written.… Continue reading The truth of my PND
Today I’ve been thinking about an idea to find simple pleasures in our surroundings. It’s so easy to get caught up in your worries of the future or pain from the past. I’m hoping that this project will help me and others take some time to really absorb what is around us. This is the… Continue reading Mindful Photography Project
PND : I’ve lost me. I won’t forget the overwhelming sadness and sense of guilt that I had about feeling that I’d totally lost myself after the birth of my baby. I wanted my old life back. My pre-baby life. A life where I was in control. I had no responsibility and total freedom. I… Continue reading It’s OK to grieve for your old life
When you are suffering from Postnatal Depression, unfortunately life can become about you getting better and that can create guilt about not being the best mum for your baby. Please don’t let this guilt fool you. You are doing the best possible job you can and if you are on your journey to recovering, you’re… Continue reading Your mum had PND: An open letter to my son
Warning: uncensored thoughts being unleashed below. I’d like to show other mums that it’s not strange to feel threatened or angered by ‘well meaning’ advice givers. Here are some examples of advice I’ve been given or heard others given and what I was thinking in my mind. (I was polite at the time & nodded… Continue reading A few words back to that advice you’d rather not have got
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